Blanche Dubois

Well, here it is….believe or not we all share something with “Blanche Dubois”. From A STREET CAR NAMED DESIRE…. “Whoever you are, I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.” Because in many cases, life throws you out the way of the ones who said they would be kind. Whether or not we do this on our own, they walk away, or situations arise to claim those who are kind. Chances are you are just left behind to grasp at anything or anyone willing to share a smile or a hello. Have we really become such a machine that we are willing to grind others in our own set of gears? Regardless, we are left alone, missing that connection with the ones we had relationships with and find ourselves empty, drained of the life we had hoped of or were told about. Instead we sit, in a corner removed, an outcast, only given what is required, only using what we are given. However, the greatest gift I was given was to create; this allows me to not let that person stay in the corner, but welcome them and make friends with them. These are my paintings, my strangers, my new friends. These are the strangers I depend on for kindness.

Ladders

Currently I am working on something out of my realm; or is it? I saw an image on a ceiling, yes, my inspiration comes from everything. But it reminded me of a ladder, but it appeared to have a sword as one of the rungs. So I began....however, once again the painting took over, there was already something there wanting to emerge from the canvas. What do you do? Allow it to speak, control, and be born. The one ladder turned to many, almost as if they were falling, but where to, where from, better question, why am I seeing this? So I decided to look up some of the meanings for ladders. Here is what I found:

Psychological Meaning:

A ladder may represent the different levels of consciousness between man and his divine self. It is a symbol of achieving personal wholeness. As a worldly symbol, climbing a ladder may represent progress such as achieving status, power or an important goal. Descending a ladder may represent the opposite or an escape from your spiritual responsibilities.

Mystical Meaning:

The Biblical story of Jacob’s ladder is a symbol for the communication between this world and the spiritual realms. Similarly, in Mesopotamia the Ziggurat was named ‘the ladder to heaven’. In psychological terms this mystic symbolism can be understood as the communication between the true self and the ego. Consider this quote from Twitchell: “The higher one climbs on the spiritual ladder, the more he will grant others their own freedom and give less interference to another’s state of consciousness.”

So now the even more questions arise....am I climbing up or down? Am I achieving a goal, or throwing it away? Am I searching for something to help guide my life to where I need to be?

Rant of the day

Well, here it is 11:24 PM, and I am ready to unleash some serious crap. I am just really sick of the same ole line or excuse....WOW, can I use those too? Finds out that I CAN'T....well shit on me. Seems like double standards are the way to go these days. Sadly, I am not even in a place to scream, let alone run away to do what I do. Unleash this on canvas! Wouldn't that be great? I can see it now, all the REDS, BLUES, OCRE..........BLACK. But to be honest, there is white too...subtle glimpses of hope through a nightmarish rainbow of mere shit. But wouldn't it really be grand though, to release this fury of emotion onto a canvas allowing it just to to take over and express itself in such a beautiful way? I make ART, it's what I do, it's how I think, IT IS what I am......nothing great or wonderful, just a person who thinks of all the pain, sorrow, starving, loss, and other just plain shit life has to offer and tries to make something less painful, sad, without....so there you have it folks. Lemons to lemonade, shit to art.