This is going to be a very hard blog post to write. Recent have caused me to be removed from my favorite job I have ever had; sadly I am no longer the artist-in-residence at AUP. However, in light of this I feel very strongly that a new chapter that will bring forth a more wonderful opportunity. I am now painting again in my personal residence, and much to my surprise, even more creativity is flowing. I will miss the gallery, but again, the new chances I have are flowing as my brush. I harbor nothing now but love and for the first time in a very long time peace. I am on the path of regaining myself, something forgotten or at the very least misplaced. I repeat this so much, but I do feel that when I approach the canvas, there is something already there just waiting for me to find it and bring out so others may see. "The painting has a life of its own. I try to let it come through." Jackson Pollock
This is a relationship with the work, it needs to be loved, caressed, given the attention the same as a person does; if this happens, the work is successful, if not, it fails, falls, and needs to be destroyed only to give way to a rebirth of sorts. Thankfully, that rebirth is happening to me as well, I too have failed, fallen, and been destroyed only to give way to my own personal rebirth and growth. What I thought was empty has been filled.
Don't be afraid to walk through the door, even if you are being pushed out of it. It is merely a new place, a new beginning, a new growth, a new you. Allow this process to take place, for I found if you do not, there is nothing but the past. I learned something recent, if you live in the past and worry about tomorrow, you are throwing today away. Live now, for the moment; it is truly a gift that should not be rejected.
So live, love, and paint, it isn't what you do, IT IS WHO YOU ARE. And the last piece of advice I have now, don't allow others to take that gift away from or throw it away, it is yours and meant to used.
